Learning To Walk Again....This Has Been A Rough Week....

This past week I was brought to my knees...It was both a surprising and a staggering blow...It was a move that came unexpected...Words spoken that I had never heard before...Hateful words, shameful words and they just plain tore me up...I found that getting back up from these remarks more difficult than I had ever expected...The message she sent me was well thought over...Very deliberate and meant to sting....No, meant to bleed...It was a vicious blow...It hurt....I have now recovered and am much wiser in life...I now know of the older woman more than I knew last week....I have always had an idea from statements that are made by many, but this was my proof....Many are just plain sick of sex....Maybe they are to start...

I am now starting to wonder if this jealousy that I am seeing in the older woman (in their late 50's and into the 60's) is because they are not sexual anymore...They are faking it...Just may have been for years...There are a few of us women who are older that are still sexually good, but those from the old school are more from the ice age of "been there, done that and don't want to do it anymore"...This is my read on this...This past week I had the holy living crap beat out of me...One older aged woman got me good...I think she expected me to cut loose and get kicked off the site...She deserved it, but I held back...Only God, himself knows how hard that this was to do...I wanted to come on and call this "frigid Mary" every name under the sun....But I didn't....I stayed in my Moderator image and only told her in my mind and now on the paper in front of me to "fu*k herself"....I did not call her the "C" word...But, I thought it 500 times....I figure this way, she does not have my life or the lover that I have and is just a sour old prude...

I know of many women like her...Women who go to the doctors to try and find reasons that they don't have to have sex....One older woman that I know of will blow her husband and swallow rather than allow him to insert his dick inside her....Then we have the older men in their late 60's and 70's that get no sex and have to take a Viagra just to be able to get a hard on to masturbate...Their problem is that they have masturbated so often that they can no longer get an erection....Sad, but true...Many, many women hate sex....More than people realize....Few of us enjoy this wonderful pleasure....It is just lucky for me that one of them crawled out of the woodwork to aim her well placed shot at me....Hopefully she will again go back into her hovel and play "mirror, mirror on the wall"....

This was rough, but I made it through....I am now stronger and more aware of my surroundings....There will be more as this is life...I am not sure if I should protect myself more or not....The stronger side of me says, I have gotta be me.... I am now OK.....It is time to move on....I will not be forced in a corner and hide...Take care, Caroline