nOT HAPPY WITH pORN BLOG

About three weeks ago I did a blog on Porn...I did it here at this site...It hadn't been completed when my problems at the Forum happened...This happening had to do with male masturbation...I have argued from the get go with a poster who believe that men should masturbate until the cows come home...It was after his words that I deleted this post...Later when I found out that because of this happening that my account was closed, I was crushed...I was informed two days ago that I am again allowed to post there...I have not signed on again...I was shocked at the things that this poster said to me....More shocked that they were allowed to be spoken....Always will be...I used to be a Moderator at that Forum...This poster is wrong in his thinking....So wrong that he isn't worth arguing with....When I quit the Forum it was because of this poster...Believe me I am not the only one who has quit it because of him....Many people have been shocked at what has happened...I know...They have written me...But it is life....This is  one of the downfalls in my persona...I get scared and run....If I had thought it out, I would have stayed and battled him...Hurt is  my life can affect me deeply...Add to this the embarrassment in the words that this member threw at me and I was crushed...You see he knew that I had quit as a Moderator and he considered this open hunting season on me...No respect, only low blows...And believe me, they were low...I downloaded the whole thread after the conversation was over...I quit first....It was really bad...This conversation was eventually cleaned up by the staff....This was in his favor.....Whenever I feel bad about posting there, I pull it up and read it...Sometimes I truly can't believe that this not only was allowed to happen...The disrespect that I took will never be forgotten...I will remember it well...... 

Seeing that Porn and Masturbation seem to go hand and hand, I am covering these two subjects.....I recall one thing that stood out in my mind as one of the main focus of that writing...I will repeat it here....I had been advised of a new site on toys and sexual amusement items...Seeing that I like to know what is going on, I checked it out...It was a big site...Actually quite a few pages...A woman (I think there were two plus some man) were demonstrating how some items worked...The woman had this neat dildo...This was a video...It was called some kind of a silky something or other...I think it came in pink and purple...She gave this demonstration of how to use it...It had boning in it so that you could curve this little mother to whatever position you want...About 7 inches long with a nice head and girth...Next to her she had the bottom half of a woman's sexual parts...Upper legs up to her navel...Nice shaved vagina that separated...I mean this was hot...You could even see her clit...Hole in the back where her anus would be...The woman took the fake dick and told the listeners how you spread water based lubricant all over it...Go from the head down the shaft and encase the ribbed sides...Believe me, this was good...Then she held it and went to the female parts...She very sexually teased it over the lips and opening...Moved them apart like your lover would move yours...Gently put it inside the love canal and started thrusting...Deep in and out motions...I swear to God that I was getting saturated just watching her...Actually, I was a sexual mess...When she was done I was in heat...Shut off the website and went looking for this item on the website...I knew that they had it on their site, but I wanted to beat the price...Found a great website that sold it for $10 cheaper...Needless to say I ordered it...Why, I don't know....Unless I was in sexual heat and need and had no intention of saying, no...One more thing...I did go back to the website and watched that heated mating again...This is what Porn can do for you...I mean I get a lot of sex, yet this was pure hotter than hell sex  with the graphic movements of two people screwing their brains out...

The dildo that I ordered came the first of the week...My husband never even knew that I even ordered it...He hates sex toys....He wants to be my only lover so I tell him nothing...However, he does know about Eric my Eroscillator...He knows I use it and also knows what a sexual woman that I am....He just doesn't want to when and anything about the passion that I feel with that little piece of throbbing machinery....I wouldn't want him to see this...It is just plain too darn hot...Sometimes the thrill is so mind boggling that it leaves you weak....That night as soon as he was asleep I got it out...Put plenty of lubrication on it and tried sticking it in me...I hated it...It seemed too big...I am, even after three children and a lot of love making, very nice and tight...Closed vulva and can really turn my husband on...I tried shoving it up farther...It hurt like hell...Where were all the vibes I was suppose to feel?...There was no orgasm...It did nothing for my clit...It was supposed to stimulate my g-spot, but instead it hurt...It rammed against my cervix and I became a victim of my own sexual appetite in being turned on by porn.....Without a doubt the night I watched this I was fingering myself....If I wasn't doing that I was sure grinding....All in all I threw $49.99 down the drain...I threw it away....Another sucker was born....Thus the story of Porn......

In the last year I have seen an epidemic of men who can no longer get it up for having sex with their wife/girlfriend....In addition to this are the men and boys that can't get hard with even masturbating....Damage is being done....They, like a woman, can become their own favorite lover...Their hands can become perfection...When they approach a woman's vaginal opening, they want to shove it in quick...They are used to Porn...There the female sexual organ is open and waiting for them...No foreplay necessary....Now they have arrived at a place where a woman doesn't know how to handle this problem....She lives in a place with no foreplay and a man with no patience...Unfortunately, this is pretty much the story of many lives...

I know what I am talking about on the subject, but I get against an old man who swears up and down that he is right and I am wrong....I can say nothing right...The only difference is that he has read all the books and I am life...Books cannot tell the tale of what is happening in the bedroom...Many are written many years ago...What life was then and what it is now is as different as night and day.....Now I am going to close this and edit it tomorrow night....I will probably be adding to it too....May as well do it here as I will be darned if I am going to go onto another Forum and get the hell beat out of me....

Gosh, I love this site...I can leave a blog raw for editing the next day and not fear it being deleted....Can do my own word check and find my errors...Life is good....Take care, Caroline