**I Am Unique...But Then Aren't All Women!!!**

Today I came to the conclusion that I am unique...I am the only person in the world like me.....I am probably the only soul that would come out and say that they are unique...  Many other men and women roam this earth, but none that are exactly like me....They are unique too, but unlike me, they may decide that they do not want to write about themselves....I choose to do this....You see, I like being unique....So I write....And you think you have problems....

I look at myself as being unique for many reasons...Let's go with the first...I doubt there is any other woman in the world that is as hot tempered and can fly off the handle as fast as I can.  Now I will add to that statement... I'll bet that there are not too many that have had to apologize for that hot outburst like I have had to do in my "short" life.....And it does not stop here.....Just when I think I have gotten myself out of one pickle, I will crawl right back out and get into another....Wouldn't you think I would learn?? But I don't....I guess now I have to say my old stand by phrase, This is Who I Am....Give me a few brownie points for admitting this.......

Being unique, I find myself wondering, how many other women are as sexual as I am.  I mean like Larry the Cable Guy, with me it is, Get It On....Not that I want to cheat on my husband, but that I just plain love sex....Now that alone does not make me unique, but how about having your Ovaries and Uterus taken out at age 47 and only having Premarin for a kicker to try and find yourself again as a woman.  That alone should make me unique...When they told me that this is how it was going to be,  I then had to try and find my way back to my  sexual self...Slowly as I stumbled down that dusty and unfamiliar road, I found the right turn and again found my joys in our  sexual heaven.  With that in mind, I think I should get top grades for being unique because that was not easy.......Needless to say it took a unique woman to carefully map out her way, and make sure that I would never again get lost and want of my sexual self again.  I memorized that road and made sure that if they took out any more body parts, that I would still stay sexual for my husband.  This way, we could always be the lover's that we are...  I did this because we truly have the greatest love that the world has ever known.......Except when I am PO and then it goes down the ladder in rating.......

I am definitely unique because I am able to be young and old at the same time..All of this in the same body..If you saw what I did to my husband in bed this morning as I raised him from the dead, I would get an Academy Award...I am not only unique, I am good...Dam good.....I truly doubt that there is another woman  like I am...I have the sexual heat of a the younger woman and the sexual knowledge of the older woman.  In plain words, I am dynamite.......I have this wonderful sexual knowledge that women cannot find and I have it all the time....and believe it or not, some people dam me for it....I am not supposed to be like this....I should be rocking away and making a fu*king pie.... I don't know where this all comes from but it just  floats into my mind...Not from reading about sex, but just from being me.  I am able to read a woman's post and tell if she is sexual or playing a game of " let's pretend"....  Let me tell you, there are a WHOLE lot of woman on the Internet that are posting and playing that game.... I mean down right growing noses half way off their face's....And that is just a start....Poor women, they never heard of "Pinocchio" before they looked in the mirror......Now it is too late.....

I am unique because I do have the balls to tell a man on the Internet that if he tries to force a woman to swallow that he is a pig.  I let them know that all women will not swallow on demand.  Make it an order and she will tell you to go and suck yourself.  You may get a sore back trying, but just lean down with a hard on and do it......Sick puppy!!!!.....This sexual act must be done in passion.  I tell them that most of the women do not want their love stick's shoved up their butt.  They want the hot sexual place between their legs opened up and made juicy.....They not only want him to suck pus*y, they want to be fu*ked there too.  I tell them that how can they expect a woman to suck and clean them off after sex, when she has been treated like a low life to start...  A woman must want all these erotic things done to her at the right time and the right place.  She has to be turned on sexually to do this and unless she is, this erotic act means nothing. ....A "blow job" is just a phrase  that is loosely used.  It means passion when it is used right, but not used at the right time and the right place, all will suffer and true sexual pleasure has lost it's beauty.......I wonder if any man will understand what I have just written or are they just in for the glory of jacking off in our mouth????

I think if a person has power in their words they should be called unique.  I believe I do have power in my words because my words are knowledge and nothing made up.  I am able to go into my mind, transform it to my thoughts and then sketch my thoughts on the computer paper in front of me...I am the painter and I am painting my picture of life for you to see and as I am seeing it, I am letting you see it.  I have found that women love it and people can understand me...Patti has always said my power is in my words and today for the first time ever, I understood what she meant...When I wrote this blog, I did it in five minutes.  That is because it flew off of my finger...Things that can take another person a couple hours is there for me just like that.....I am starting to realize how much I am loved by so many of the  people that read my site.  Yet I must know my limitations for I am not that young and there is only so much of me, and I must remember that my husband and family need me...I know that my blog's are not read for Porn or smut, they read them to see what I say...They probably are wondering what the old broad has gotten into today...Yet, I find this so humbling that anyone would be interested in my life and even more humbling when someone says that I am a good writer......People touch me so deeply with the things they say when they write me....I treasure each and every message I get......They are my payment for what I do......

I am unique because I will stand up and oppose a crowd of people...I will fight for what I believe.  I will not let one of my sister women be in pain because a man wants to sexually use or abuse her...I wonder if any men realize that being forced to drink their cum is sexual abuse to some women...It is called force feed...Some women can suck a man and I enjoy it to no limit, actually I love it but so many do not want to drink his cum and they get sick from it......Many women hate this and they are not wrong....It is their God given choice and they should be respected for and loved as much as any other woman alive....They are the precious one's...

It is early Sunday morning and I have had to come back on to add this one more thing about me...I am unique  because I battle back...I get hurt again and again and plan for something and can constantly get deceived and despite the hurt can again find my way home...This has nothing to do with my family but life itself and dealing with the public.....If I had half a brain in my head, I would not venture out of this site and stay parked here until the day I die but the ununique me (a word I just made up)  is stupid....She tries and gets beat up and falls into the mud and gets royally pissed off and types it on the computer and will probably come back and erase this whole paragraph tomorrow......Lord, how I fight myself.......I wonder if all people have such a conscience as I do......I should be looking at old pictures or playing bridge and instead I am doing this..........Now I have to get to bed but I will sleep good....You see, I got porked good this morning....Oh, that is great....We now can add that I am a pig to everything else....

I could go on about me being unique for about 400 more pages but then I would have to do 500 more about all of my faults...So let's leave it at this.......I have a feeling that I will be doing a lot more writing here.....I find it hard on the Forum's because being older, many times I get picked apart......This is not their fault....This is my fault......I was born at the wrong time in life...I am the older one and they are the younger and more in touch with the group of posters........So with this in mind, this baby will be my home port...........I will be joining my sailor here and seeing I get seasick............ I will be staying in dry dock with him most of the time.........Much love to all, Caroline